Dear Diary,

What a day today! This morning went for my dizi lesson. Lao shi kept reminding me 2 weeks from now.. Blew the 'zou xi kou' and 'white snake' concertos.. quite ok la.. but need to brush up more.. not enough feelings.. jia you ba! i'm motivated now..lol

Then i was late for school! Reached at around 11.15am.. got student dialogue with the director and lecturers.. sian.. i like kena every dialogue each sem..except first yr sem1. -.- But im the okok type so nothing much to say or complain about. Just open my ears and listen =)

After the dialogue, Dr Tan asked me about Keele Uni whether i'm going.. She encouraged me to go and said its a good and rare opportunity. After asking her a few doubts, I somehow got an ease and was encouraged by her words and from Tin Hee too. Dr Tan even told me to apply MDA scholarship or MOE or NAC and said there should be no problem getting financial help from these organisations. Tin Hee even offered to help me with my interview skills..so nice of her.. hmm.. i shall go check it out later! =)

Actually i think i'm a SUPER indecisive person.. hai.. even raymond said it too.. lol.. yesterday I set my mind that i'm going to give up this keele uni scholarship cos today need to confirm le. I even planned of what i'm going to do after i graduate. Don't know why suddenly got the interest to become a teacher maybe in pri sch or sec sch.. teach english or music? But i checked online and they say poly diploma cert only can teach pri sch and need to go NIE for 2 yrs training. If u have a degree, just need to go for 1 yr training. Then the pay difference is $500+ if u have a degree rather than a diploma cert.

Looking through the local uni, each course like 3-4 yrs. Then im only interested in socialogy or psychology or maybe hospitality? haha.. i saw there's a degree in Education but need to study 4 yrs. But good thing is that the course is free and u get allowance for the 1st 2 yrs.. but then like cannot do other stuffs.. that's the bad thing.. but got fixed rice bowl.

hmm.. initially i didnt want to go keele cos of a few things.. my father and money prob $18k per yr for 2 yrs after scholarship subsidy.. then another is im afraid i cant cope there cos skip 1st yr.. straight away go 2nd yr.. then friends.. though only 2 yrs but like in 2 yrs many things can happen.. lose in touch.. maybe when i return, my close friends all gone missing le..? hope it wont happen.. then i worry about my jaw.. if its not a major prob then it'll be ok.. then go there all eng speaking.. the instruments are all western.. dunno go there they will accept dizi ma for performance module?

but surprisngly, this morning my mum suddenly told my father about keele uni and that im giving up then wanna go study other stuffs. then they quarrelled bcos of that again. say i 1/2 bucket of water.. go study other things like waste my time in poly. then i say i wanna become a teacher he scolded me say teacher useless and pay very low blah blah blah.. then i so angry..told him that i received e scholarship then u know wad, he said he allow me to go.. $36k he still can afford.. -.- diao.. then i was confused again..

after thinking through for the final time and getting some suggestions from ppl, i decided to go cos i think 2 yrs get a double degree.. music and music tech is very rare.. then when i come back, i wanna become a teacher.. whahaha! =) set liao!

ok.. back to the rest of the day..

sian man.. after the dialogue around 12pm, nothing to do..have to wait in sch till 4pm for my POD2-longing tears presentation.. Then Wee Siong, Edwin, Bo Yuan, Jemie, Louis and I went to FC1 to eat.. damn far man.. but it was ok..lol.. all of us bought almost the same food and bubble tea. =D
After eating we went to SPGG to play bowling! long time nv play le.. so fun! we played 3 rounds.. all of us were so funny! kept encouraging and supporting each other to get strike or spar.. =) 1st round Louis was top man.. haha.. then 2nd round was me.. 3rd round was jemie. so funny.. our points improved for each round. =P

then around 3.45pm we left and the guys practised standing board jump to prepare for NAFA.. haha.. all fail for that.. partly cos they were wearing jeans..lol..

then sian.. the presentation started at around 4.30pm.. then my turn was at around 5.45pm.. but everything was ok.. im so glad that the lecturers gave quite good comments..just that the dizi was not recorded nicely..but now i know.. must set the mic higher and in omni direction.. =) hard work so-called paid off.. but still need more improvement to make my piece even better!

jia you ba everyone! more assignments coming up.. so stressed! but i love stress!! haha

just now inside train so irritating.. suddenly got 2 weird uncles quarrelling. 1 was standing then the other was sitting. then they kept scolding all kinds of hokkien vulgarities despite many ppl staring at them.. so pissed off la.. if wan to quarrel then don't do it in public. they think they acting in drama..so disgusted by their childish actions.. they almost ended up beating each other when we reached buangkok mrt.. nobody seemed to bother about them too until when we reached SK.. but dunno wad happened after tt la.. hope they are ok liao..

oh well.. =)