Dear Diary,

So what have i been doing for the past 1 week? lol.. slacking at home watching anime.. Clannad and Lucky Star.. Louis intro one.. Nice!! ^^ Then cleaned up house as usual.. watch tv.. become fatter.. *.*

Mon

Went for SYCO combine prac. First prac with the new conductor Mr Shen Yao Yao. His name's so cute! haha.. First impression of him was not bad! He's always smiling and friendly, unlike Mr Ku Pao Wen.. I think i enjoyed the prac now as compared to last yr's. Perhaps also bcos' Pauline and Hsien Han joined SYCO. Now dizi not so sian le.. yeah!! Then Michelle whom i got to know from EVCO, also joined SYCO. Then we stayed just a distance walk away. So now everytime the 3 of us can go home together same NEL. YEAH!! ^^ We practiced Jiang Jun Lin.. nv played this version b4.. quite long but interesting! haha.. Quite miss the time going home with William.. i think 2006's was the best SYCO i ever had and enjoyed.. 2004 too. lol.. all the alternate years are the best cos now is 2008.. lol..

Tues

YEah! Finally I get to arrange outing for my gang of girls.. =D We met at 12pm in sch FC 4 to have our lunch. Ling Er and Yue Ting did not join us. Then after lunch, we went to SPGG to play bowling! So fun la! haha..Ling Er came later to join us..hehe.. Then the 1st round i won.. ^^ 2nd round Ling Er won.. After that, we went to play pool upstairs.. And played the arcade.. so long nv had to play so many things in one day la!! So fun!! Took a lot of photos too!

Around 430pm, Ling Er and Puay Chin left and we headed to Orchard to shop and have our dinner at Shaw House Jap Restaraunt, while waiting for Yue Ting to come. Chiew Hsia and I bought the same shirt at Espirit.. hehe.. got discount. Then after dinner, so funny! Yue Ting needed to buy formal wear for her new job.. Then it was like already 9.30pm.. shops gonna close.. so we like ran like hell.. marathon..haha.. from shaw house to wisma to takashimaya and then to lucky plaza..-.-but its good that we can exercise after that big fat meal..

Wed

Went to sch at 8am la.. so early!!!!! went for recording.. Hazel and I booked together and we asked boo honk to help us play the drums,elec guitar, bass.. He's so multi-talented la!! hai see both of them.. one know how to sing, write songs and play guitar so well.. then e other multi-instrument talented.. I feel so lousy..haha.. But it was fun..also met geoff then he said he got something to pass to me.. don't know wad la.. after that we treated bonk for lunch and i went to bugis to meet my ah jie for shopping.. She's so good!! Always treat me for meals and buy things for me! =D enjoyed shopping with her.. really looking forward to the taiwan trip with her! must save $$ le!! whahaha!! Btw, today so happy la!!!! guess wad, i received a call from SAA.. said i got selected for SP role model award.. then next tues must go down for interview.. whaha!! i dun like interview.. cos i scared i'll screw up.. im so bad at expressing myself la.. hope everything will be fine!! I must jia you!! ^^

After that around 5.45pm i left to meet Pauline for dinner at lau pa sa.. then we went for SYCO sectional prac. Sectional prac was alright.. But i still feel that lao shi don't really like me leh.. he treats other ppl better and kept asking the rest how have they been doing or something.. but i received none from him =( hai.. hope the next prac will be better. I must improve myself!!

Thurs

This morning went for Dizi lesson. haha.. then finally received my dizi diploma cert! so happy!!! Then went home to put my dizi before going sch for recording again.. this fri and next mon also got recording.. i guess hazel and i booked too much -.- but so happy la.. now studios dun have the time allocation rule le.. so can book as many as u like but 1 person max 4hrs per day.. =D gonna compose more songs while i can b4 graduating. Today quite bored.. felt very paiseh too.. cos last min asked bonk to help me with the acoustic guit..actually wanted hazel to play de.. but he played really well!! =D so talented!!

i miss sch la...

Dear Diary,

so tired! today cleaned up the house whole day.. -.- now holiday le.. very sian.. actually thought i found a part time teaching job already. but last min my ex-lecturer said the sch wanna cut budget so next week dun need me to help teach the students software le.. hai.. =( wanna find a job soon! got any recommendations? For the past 2 days went shopping.. Finally bought my new yr clothes already. But only bought 3 shirts.. think i'm gonna save the rest of my money for taiwan trip on 15 march! yeah!! hai.. don't know why.. my father's so weird.. said he supported me to go overseas study but recently kept saying things that make me hesitate and confused. Can i really support myself when im there all alone? Don't know why..since last yr i've been falling sick like almost every month or two.. will i be able to survive there especially with the super cold weather and their 4 seasons change? Then my father's keep complaining and worrying.. say his bank left half the money he used to have.. then complain his health also becoming bad.. Should i continue studying? or just go out work to support my family.. Sometimes really pity my father.. he's the only one who supports this family. But i cant do anything to help him.. just keep taking money from him. Thinking that if im going keele uni, im sure going to make him broke soon. though it's only 2 yrs.. but the expenses there are so high.. haix.. how i wish faster win 4-D or TOTO..hahaha!! Then thinking.. go local uni also need to study like 3-4yrs.. also need money.. but dun need the extra accomodation fees... argh! go work's the best la.. haha.. dUnno leh! i was thinking how about go straight to NTU study education.. then become teacher.. every month got free allowance.. free tuition fees.. everything free.. just need to bond.. but bond=stable job. haha.. argh >.< im so darn confused la!

Dear Diary,

It has been so long since i last blogged. Was super busy rushing my final 7 projects like mad! The last 2 weeks were like hell.. everyone was like rushing their projects and staying up the whole night finishing their reports and stuffs. Never been so stressed before! And now guess what, time passes so fast la! Today's my last day of sch!! OH MAN!! I'm so 'She Bu De' to leave sch so fast.. 3 yrs.. so fast la!! Haix..

Today's our final day of Portfolio Development presentation. We had to present our 2 final improved original works/songs. Today's also my slot.. the presentation was from 10am-5.30pm. Heard 40 songs for both days consecutively.. but really very enjoyable! Hearing everyone's works.. Everyone really improved a lot since year 1!! Can really see our improvements and our work quality! I also had my presentation today.. was in the morning slot. I guessed it went pretty well.. so sad la.. my 1st song is about Friendship.. and i dedicated to everyone in DMAT.. sounded so sad.. cos today's our final day and sounded like graduation already..though our graduation will be on the 28th May 2008.

Don't know leh.. i've never ever felt so sad leaving sch before.. primary sch.. really no feelings at all. In fact, I was really eager to leave sch and super happy la! Perhaps, I didnt really meet very good friends back then, being bullied by my friends and was quite lonely and sad in sch and so thinking of going to a new sch, I can start all over again and be a much better person.

Then in sec sch, sec 1 was like hell la.. got bullied by some of my classmates again.. called me stupid names.. hai.. didnt really want to say out.. sec 2-4 went pretty well bcos' i met a lot of very good friends in my sec sch's chinese orchestra.. that encouraged me and helped me become a better person. It was very fun being with them..especially during sec 2 when we often go out to watch SCO concerts and play badminton together..

i was not really close with my classmates.. perhaps, i didnt want to open up to them ba.. so graduation day was still alright for me.. i was not really sad parting with my classmates, except for some really wonderful teachers i had like Mr Lim Choon Heng, Mr Lim Seng Yuan,Ms Louis Ng and Mrs Ajith.. Somehow i still feel very guilty of myself for not scoring well for my biology..I know Mrs Ajith had high hopes for me.. cos she had confidence in me that i would score A1.. my prelims and olevels for bio was such a big diff..from A2 dropped to C6. haix..anyway, After a small 4EB class gathering overnight stay at Sentosa beach on 2004, we somehow lost contact with each other. Or supposingly, I didnt receive any invitations or class gathering information from them. Just went out with a few closer friends like BeeYan,BeeTing, JieYin,Rabi,Shuna to shop once in a while.. and then i think its been like 6 months since we last met.

However, im really grateful and happy that I still have my SRSCO friends.. we go out for gatherings quite often and i really treasure the time with everyone! Thinking back, my pri sch days to sec 1.. were quite miserable.. the only thing i did most was to cry and cry and cry.. But im really thankful for having to meet so many great friends who encourage me and be by my side when im down or share my happiness with me! Without them, i think i would have gone into depression already..no kidding. They made me a better and more confident person..its their encouragements and truthful comments and advice that make me change and open up. THANK YOU, MY FRIENDS! I really hope this happy feeling will last forever. but will it? haix..

Then actually.. i was quite eager to graduate and come to this course Diploma in Music and Audio Technology (DMAT).. as i feel that i should be with people with the same interest.. as my interest for all along has been MUSIC. In sec sch, my classmate's interest and i didnt really match that's why i supposed we were not that close.. bcos' what i want was not what they wanted to do. So i was really looking forward to get into this course and meet up new ppl with the same interest. Luckily, Wee Siong also got into this course! I've actually known him since 2003 at the national chinese orchestra music camp. But before that, known him thru' IRC. LOL!So we got into this course and went for the orientation together..
Then on the 1st day of sch.. we also met up with Royston, who had found me on Friendster. haha.so funny! still remembered that i was so Shuay on the 1st day of sch la! I had stomachache.. stuck inside e bus for like 1.30hrs.. -.- wanted to try take 74bus from hougang to dover. -.- then late.. 1st impression to Royston was like so bad.lol.. Then met Chrislyn during the class.. and we went for lunch at FC 4. Then right.. I wanted to go toilet ma.. then didnt see e stairs in front of me..so i tripped and fell down right in my face. so damn embarrassing la!! hahahaha!

Then slowly, i met more new ppl.. we had flag-day.. then met Yue ting, Puay Chin and more.. i partnered Chrislyn for the flag-day event. Then after that, we had to do a music theory quiz to split class.. and so Wee Siong left us for DMAT01.. the rest of us were in 02.

Then slowly on the way back.. i saw Chiew Hsia.. then coincidently, we live at SengKang! yeah.. so from tt day onwards, we became quite close and meet up everyday at SengKang MRT to go sch. Then don't know why.. i was not with Chrislyn anymore.. we somehow got split up and the 4 of us went in a group.. Yue Ting, Puay Chin, Chiew Hsia and I. cos partly the FC6 tables were in 4s.

Then so funny.. Hazel, MeiHui and Ling Er always sat behind us and when we needed to split into bigger groups.. the 4 of us would turn around.. and so we became a big 7 ppl group.. went to eat together.. I was really happy at that moment.. because i nv had a group of 7 friends who always do things together in sch.. I was like either alone or with 1 or 2 friends at lunch that were nv for long in the past.

I also realised the 7 of us really had similar interest and we actually supported and helped each other in our projects and assignments! Im really thankful to have met the 6 of them!! I must admit that I really enjoyed my poly sch life alot! i've never regretted choosing DMAT and after admitting into this course, i was nv unhappy.. every day life in sch was fun, exciting, happy and challenging! =D I also received a lot of opportunities from my lecturers and CCAs be it SPCO or SYCO.. 2006 yr 2 was the best yr i ever had.. went overseas to tainan with SYCO to perform, went to Redang for leadership camp, went to cruise for SPCO perf.. many concerts.. leadership opportunities like class rep..

Couldnt believe that i would be with my 6 othe friends from yr1 all the way now. and we were nv separated.. except for a 6month cold war with chiew hsia.. we still went out together as a group.. even had the habit of celebrating each of our birthdays together and eating out taking lots of pics! i nv experienced these things at all in my sec sch years. Really felt so happy being with them!

My classmates and coursemates are all very kind and supportive.. during our presentations yesterday and today.. everyone applauded and cheered for each other.. every single one!! im so grateful for meeting everyone in my course!

Besides gaining knowledge and experience in music and audio tech, I learnt alot from my friends and they are really a good example for me to follow.. they are nv discouraging or selfish. I was so guilty la. i still remembered in yr 1, i accidentally dropped Hazel's discman and the cover broke.. the discman was not hers but her sis's.. i thought she would be so mad at me.. and i was already prepared to receive my punishments.. however, she was not angry at all! I felt really bad and wanted to buy her a new one or pay her back.. but she told me in a really friendly and kind tone.. saying that its alright. I also nv seen her angry in my 3 yrs.. she's always so happy, easy-going and cheerful. and i really want to learn from her.. so open up and really talented at songwriting. I love all her songs!! Chiew Hsia's also another friend whom i really want to learn from. She's also helped me a lot.. with my works.. gave me very good suggestions and cheered me up when i am sad..I must comment her math and chinese is really good!! Yue Ting's also a very intelligent girl and also corrects me for my blurness.. I must admit.. im very blur and i always think very slow.. keep saying the wrong things.. but they are still very patient with me.. Mei Hui's also another girl whom i really like.. always so happy.and she is so funny la! if u scare her a bit she'll scream.. hahahaha!! make us all LOL! Then Ling Er is another talented one.. extremely GOOD at sports la!!! so envy her!! hahaha!! =D Pei Zhen's also.. 2006 was the closest with her when she was in SYCO and SPCO.. her ruan rocks man.. spent my co time almost with her.. but somehow in 2007 we were not as close as b4..

I will really miss my friends.. hai.. so sad.. i miss chingay parade with louis, clef and ryu! this yr not taking part le cos we didnt continue our japanese lessons. I also miss the yr 1 night gathering where we would go out as a group to have dinner.. really looking forward to the class chalet!!!!! I miss my lecturers and im really thankful for them! cos they nv give up on me and they gave me a lot of great opportunities.. gave me really good advices.. i love all of them! Thank You Tin Hee, Erica, Geoffrey, Michael, Jimmy, Tim R, Dr Tan!! =D

I will also miss the studios.. hahaha... free recording man.. hai..

most of all.. of course without my closest best bro raymond, i also wouldnt be what i am today. Thank you for giving me so many great advices, helped me with all my problems and being by my side in my weakess and ugliest moments and also sharing my happiest moments with me! im really happy that i am still very good friends with you for about 5 yrs le!! =D thank you for not giving me up too.. im also thankful and happy to have great friends who supported me in a lot of things like my perf, competition..and also participated together in concerts and outings.. Thank You Chu Jun and Derek..and also my SRSCO great friends.. like Angie, Ben, Jason, JJ, James, Loong.. and many many more!

I also love my family.. though my father always scolds us.. he still cares alot for us.. and still supported me despite me being so rude to him..

haha.. im like writing a farewell letter man.. oh no! dun get e wrong idea.. think im just feeling overly-emotional now.

I miss sch! thinking of leaving sch.. im just like a lost bird.. can u believe it? until now.. i still cannot make up my decision!! i dunno why this decision is so hard to make.. i've always been very fast at making decisions.. but nv took so long to decide.. go KEELE UNI or study LOCAL UNI? oh man!! what am i thinking actually? what do i want to be in 5 yrs time? i don't know.. perhaps im just afraid of making e wrong decisions.. i hate to leave my friends.. i just want everything to be what it is like now.. am i just afraid that history would repeat itself like when i was in pri sch or sec 1??

haix..

DMAT ROCKS..

CO ROCKS TOO..

today just went for SYCO orientation.. so happy..cos i thought i would be so lonely as william and e rest left already.. but pauline and hsien han returned!! yeah! i miss pauline so much.. last yr was like so sian la. without her around.. =D looking forward to e pracs with e new conductor Mr Shen Yao Yao. =D

im jobless.. /.\

Dear Diary,

Happy New Year!! really feel that time passes so fast.. thinking now, im gonna graduate in 1 less than 1 month's time! -.-

anyway, enjoyed my new yr eve yesterday! went to meet angie, loong, xinxian, ben, jj, mingkwang (botak), yijia and charmaine at hougang mall 62 bus stop at 3pm.. so long nv see yijia and esp charmaine! the last time i saw her was like 6 yrs ago! couldnt really recognize her.. but she was very friendly.. and just came back from australia(overseas study). =D Then later jason came up the bus on the way and we headed to east coast park for cycling! initially wanted to go pulau ubin de.. but cos last min not enough time so we changed plans.

When we reached there, we took photos and went to soak our feet inside the cooling sea.. ^^ Then Charmaine suggested that we lie on the grass and take photos from above.. but then the grasses were all wet. and yap ben so funny.. his pants all wet.. lol!! in the end, we just took normally.

After that, we went to rent our bikes..charmaine went off after taking some pics.. then we cycled from 530-730pm! it was really tiring.. cycled half the east coast.. suddenly realised east coast is really that big! then we went to some newly built track areas.. the scenery was fantastic! long time nv cycle le and it was certainly relaxing and enjoyable! Haha!! got one female cyclist so weird.. when loong was turing around she should have noticed him and stop, but she carried on moving and then almost hit each other. then she scolded something like.. "oh my god" pissed off manner. then ben and the rest started copying her.. lol.. they also sung the army songs.. lol!!

guess wad, we saw the sun set! wanted to take pics of it but was too late!! it sat down too fast.. =( then we were like mad dogs.. quickly racing back to the rental shop cos' we were going to be late le.. thought jason yi jia loong would be later than us cos we all spilted up. but so funny.. he and yi jia were the 1st to reach. and ben the last. lol.. all our legs were like so wobbly and tired! but fun!!!

After that, we walked to Parkway Parade.. to have our dinner. Derek joined us for dinner.. hehe.. wanted to eat swensens but so mnay ppl waiting outside.. so decided to eat sake sushi.. then splited up into 5-5.. cos too many ppl.. jj, neos, ben and mk sat together. then angie, xx, yijia, loong and i sat behind them. the food was very limited cos was near to their closing time. but ate till so full! =))

The time was like 1 hr to countdown.. then we took 43 back to ben's house for countdown.. mk and xx went home.. so funny! just reached his home a few mins later 12am le! then wished each other happy new yr.. his dogs are so cute!!!! i like the husky dog! =D he so cute.. hugged loong's leg.. lol! then we went home around 1am.. tired.. ZzZ..

But for now.. have to rush my assignments!! argh!!

happy new yr once again!! whee~~!!! ^^