Dear Diary,

Today was super tiring.. morning went to MOE at Buona Vista for the appointment briefing.. then realised actually being a teacher got many benefits like dental, hospital, leaves, etc..But then I'm given 2 more weeks to accept/reject their offer as I told them during the 1-1 session that I was offered to teach math in pri sch but I dont like.. so still waiting for the person in charge to reply my email regarding whether can I change to teaching music. Then really hope I can get to teach 'O' Level music and not those normal sec sch music lessons.. teach them play recorder.. cos' not challenging enough.. Best if I can further study Music Technology during or after NIE.. don't know leh.. the person was very friendly and understanding. Just got to receive the MOE in charge's email reply. Think should be can change to music.. but havent confirm yet..

anyway, after that, went to teach my student dizi.. saw Qing Lun and Wei Kang at White Sands.. lol.. then after teaching dizi.. saw Xiang Le at Pasir Ris station..lol...

Then met Pauline at City Hall at 340pm.. we went shopping.. hehe.. =)) bought a few things.. then at around 6pm Casper and Bing Hong arrived and we bought present for Lin Lao Shi..Casper so skinny liao la!! so funny!! =)) We talked about Nodame Cantabile show.. he also addicted to it..=D

Then later at 7pm, we met Xiang Le at Marina Sq the Mac there.. and we were deciding where to have our dinner.. actually wanted to go HotPot Culture.. but then inside already full house.. only left outside.. and at that time was quite warm outside.. so I suggested Lerk Thai cos' ate 2 times before and quite nice.. Bing Hong suggested Thai Express too.. then we went to see.. they felt that Lerk Thai's good cos' of the environment inside.. then so embarrassing... there were 7 of us altogether including Qing Lun and Lin Lao Shi who havent arrive.. and the seats were like max for 5 ppl.. so we asked the waitresses to arrange for 7 of us..

then when lin lao shi arrived.. so funny.. we looked at the menu and then he asked whether is there any other place to eat.. then we told him our original plan.. then after that we thought since Qing Lun havent arrive and we havent order any thing yet.. why not go back to hotpot culture to check whether there's still space? lol.. so paiseh man!!!!!!!!!!!

And we just stood up and left.. i think the waitresses and manager was like 'what the hell?'..

so paiseh.. lol!! we so xiao1 sha3 de walk off.. -.-

anyway, we went back to the hotpot culture.. and then still the same.. only left outside seats.. so no choice.. but luckily got a bit of wind..

hehe.. ate a lot!!! the cooked foods were nicer than the raw ones cos the raw ones very little variety.. Qing Lun also came shortly..chatted a lot and we were so paiseh man.. cos Lin Lao Shi treated us.. bill was like $160++.. so paiseh but really happy and thankful!! next time will be our turn to treat lao shi back le!! actually didnt expect him to treat cos' we arranged for a gathering.. just to catch up with the syco previous and current dizi ppls.. like xiang le and casper now ns le.. hardly see them.. so sad that Ting Kai, Jonathan and Hsien Han couldnt come.. =) We talked till around 1030pm and lin lao shi gave Casper, Pauline and I a ride to Serangoon MRT.. hehehe.. =)

Thank You, Lin Lao Shi!!! =))))

waiting for pauline's photos.. =) hehe.. i didnt take a lot..









=) cheers!!

Dear Diary,

Dear Diary,

haix.. sian.. kena cheated by the facilitator job.. now nv call us for any trails le.. and because of that facilitator job i gave up my 3-day event job at suntec..-.- stupid me..

anyway.. sian.. havent receive my pays yet.. the mediacorp one, TFWA event, facilitator, konghwa.. -.-

received call from some tuition agency a few days ago say got a student pri 3 asked me to teach english.. then say call me back later but till now no news.. then relief teaching also no news.. haix.. hopefully this weekend's gig perf is confirmed..

yesterday at syco was horrible too.. hai.. dun wanna say liao.. cos partly also my fault ba.. for not attending a lot of the pracs.. but a lot really due to valid reasons.. sick, sch events, overseas..

Actually wanted to go reborn my hair yesterday too.. cos Hazel and Yue Ting reborned their hair at Kimage School at Funan IT Mall for like $40-50++ only!! that was so cheap la.. and guessed what, when I called them, they say $100!!-.- then i told them my hair was about the same as Hazel's shoulder length and she said shoulder length is $100.. short hair is $50.. so big diff!!! and maybe tt time the person charged hazel wrongly or something.. diao.. -.- haix.. so think wo3 gen1 reborn hair mei2 you3 yuan2...

my jaw is getting more and more painful.. like my head and ear gonna explode soon.. the pain is so excruciating..

still no news from MDA or MOE regarding the scholarship application.. only received NAC de so far and kena rejected.. cos incomplete submission..

that day went to sch to collect my cert for being top for the semester.. lol.. surprisingly.. but really happy.. but ended up a really embarrassed situation.. my lecturer forgot to inform the admin office that i was coming so after waiting for so long.. my name was not called up.. and it was damn embarrassing.. cos my junior and coursemate edwin were wondering why I didnt have.. I was so scared that my lecturer made a mistake that I was actually not top.. or something..-.- haix.. shuay.. but luckily admin office prepared my cert.. if not a wasted trip..

then just know the singing competition results.. I didnt get in.. but anyway, I dont really care la.. just went there for experience.. so didnt put up a lot of high hopes to get into the next round. But anyway must congratulate Hazel and Ryu for getting into the next round! "

"Daniel you must continue to jia you too!! Go participate in NYP's singing contest if they have ba! Im sure you'll be able to do it!!!" =))

Oh no man.. thursday is the NIE appointment briefing le.. and I just sent an email to the person in charge asking whether can I change my course to teaching music.. Bachelor of Arts instead of Bachelor of Science teaching math.. cos' i know i really hate math.. and I definitely wont be happy studying it.. 4 yrs still!

but 2 days le.. still no reply from them.. I sent to another person incharge of the music section but he told me to email to the admission office or something.. and say better confirm before i go for the appointment briefing.. but still no reply.. i still have tmr left.. wad if by tmr I still dont receive their reply? how?? should i go for the briefing on thurs?? or email to them to reject my application??

haix.. tmr is my graduation le.. so fast.. how i wish im still in poly..=( growing up is so horrible cos we have to make so many decisions that will affect us in our later life.. this is my turning point in life le... really cant regret any of my decisions.. oh man..

how good it'll be if I can teach music at NIE.. this will mean i get to study music and learn how to teach music.. and don't have to worry about the money.. oh gosh! why didnt i tot of asking them whether can I change course or not earlier on??!! I must be mad day dreaming all day long.. only got to wake up on sun night when I realised actually can try asking them.. wa kao.. so last min la..

-.-""

pls God.. help me for the last time.. at least let me receive their reply by tmr.. so i can make up my final decision.. learn and teach Music at NIE or go Keele Uni..

everything seems not to be working out right for me these days.. is it my own fault? Or im just being shuay..

btw these few days been watching Wars of In-Laws II.. the modern version online.. so damn nice la!! im addicted to it le..lol!

Dear Diary,

Today didnt work so woke up quite late..lol! Felt so good to wake up late..lol.. i sound like a pig.. i think i've grown fatter.. =x

anyway, today went to the GuanYin Temple with my mum in the afternoon.. went there to 'qiu2 qian1'.. then asked Guan Yin Pu Sa about Keele Uni and NIE.. The results show that Guan Yin Pu Sa thinks that going UK is better than NIE.. the UK i got 'Shang4 Qian1' or 'good'.. then NIE i got 'Zhong1 Qian1' or 'Medium'.. but both are still good.. lol.. last time I went to Seng Kang the temple asking for Keele Uni the results was also good..

2 yrs and i get dual honours..

V.S.

4yrs and i get single degree w or w/o honours..

but i calculated..

if i go Keele Uni, I have to spend a total of about SGD $33,675/yr including Subsidised tuition fee from the scholarship and living expense like accomodation(standard room without washbasin), food, books,etc. And the air fare from SIN-London(Heathrow) is $1,459.. but then if i want to travel to the airport nearer to Keele Uni which is at Newcastle.. the cost from SIN-Newcastle is $6,410. Such a BIG difference! then actually from SIN-London takes about 6hr 30mins.. and from London-Newcastle takes about 1hr by air..

so ex.. so total cost is about SGD$40,000/yr..and the cost may be even higher.. X_X

OH MAN!

for 2 yrs.. roughly gonna spend like SGD$100,000 if I return back to SG during end of yr break which is from 14June-24Sept..

actually the good thing about it is that actually I only need to study less than 2 yrs.. cos' each yr only study about 8.5 months..from 25Sept-13June..

if I go NIE..

I will get paid a salary of $1,779.69 per month for 2 yrs.. so in total is $42,712.56 for 2 yrs..

and i don't need to pay a single cent for my 4yr degree course.. but only thing is i need to bond for 4 yrs.. with no regrets cos' 8yrs will be committed to teaching..

of course, this BSc in Education Degree is not as good as BA in Music and Music Tech (Dual Hons).. cos' its harder to change career next time.. by the time i finish bond.. i'll be like 28/29yrs.. so old le..

for Music degree I can still go NIE but for only 1 yr then teach.. and they'll pay me like $2,500 per month salary in NIE..

and if i realise i don't like teaching, I can still find other music or audio related jobs next time..

haix.. if i or my family members strike lottery then good le..

so expensive..

so which one will you choose??

Keele Uni V.S. NIE

Dear Diary,

Im so tired la!! Yesterday was ok.. 1st day of my job.. doing registration at Suntec City for a Trade-free Event.. from 815am-645pm -.-" Lunch break only 30mins.. but good thing is that they provide for our lunch.. so save time and money.. hehe..

Made a few friends.. almost all of the ppl whom I talked to are from NTU.. a lot study accounting..lol.. anyway.. the first thing they ask me when I told them I also waiting to go NTU.. was "Are you applying for hos?" which means hostel in short form.. lol.. and my ans was like i don't know.. cos' its really far from my house.. but don't feel lke staying there cos' very mafan..

haha.. anyway.. asked them many qns about life at NTU.. heard got someone working with us also from NIE/NTU.. but havent talk to her yet.. maybe tmr go make friend with her or something..lol..

Actually I was supposed to be doing under Visitors Pre-Registration.. partnering Sophia.. but then last min told us to partner with 2 guys doing Press and Guests/Speakers Registration.. Then I partnered a guy called Jason.. so funny.. my bro's name.. then we actually quite 'lucky' la.. cos' we are doing Guests/Speakers.. so not much to do.. very slack.. especially yesterday.. then Sophia and Jye Shyang are doing Press and got quite a few things to do.. but we help each other.. haha.. then the organisers are from France.. Got a few very nasty ones.. but I like KAREN and LOURDEZ.. both of the are the nicest and most friendliest.. the rest will show you the black face or complain or scold you.. and get irritated easily.. -.-

anyway.. today quite slack too.. but had to reach at 7.20am la!!! so early!! haix.. so tired too.. worked till 6.15pm.. we were more busy than yesterday in the morning.. but after lunch, not many press and guests came to us.. so we were like day-dreaming and stoning for hours.. really sian.. I was like stoning till I really wished there's a bed for me to sleep..lol!

But today Sophia didnt come.. was sick.. so another girl came to replace her.. and she's really friendly and nice! also same age.. called Rayna.. also NTU..lol!! Sophia and Jason's also NTU...

the job's actually ok la.. but i rather be busy so i wont be tired and sleepy.. but the clients are quite friendly.. especially japanese and ang mos.. they'll praise u.. lol.. today a jap man praised me in jap.. but luckily i know what he meant..lol.. so happy la! ^^

Got a few impatient ones.. but that's really rare la.. so quite ok.. but I hate their skirt.. so weird.. only 2 buttons and no zips..-.- then will like 'zao geng' when we sit down.. but today i smart.. brought safety pin..lol.. then imagine we have to wear the same uniform for 4days.. the guys even worse.. cos they working 5 days straight..lol.. and their uniform is a long sleeve white shirt.. even worse.. at least we girls wear black jackets.. and inside wear a tube/tank top.. so not so bad.. but just don't like the skirt.. haha.. should take a photo tmr if possible... =))

tmr not so bad la.. reach at 8am.. i heard tmr will be our turn to be busy.. hopefully ba.. if not i'll start to day dream again..

yesterday went to get Amath and Emath from Angie and Jason.. thanks a lot peggy!!! ^^ then chatted with them for a while.. and just now went to meet Chiew Hsia and Yue Ting after work for dinner.. and we also chatted about uni decisions...

haix..

im so lost..

#$%#%$#$# %$%!!@!#

good night.. haha.. ZzZ.. cant think liao.. my head's empty..

but i think cham liao.. my Amath all forgotten liao.. -.-

Dear Diary,

ha ha ha .. i'm jobless again.. thought tmr still need to go back to work for the boring training.. and i just received a msg saying that my training is over and I dont need to go back.. anyway, i hate the job.. so i'm not sad or disappointed that im not selected... Just feel paiseh for Hazel.. leave you to work alone.. =x

life sucks man.. i just cant seem to find a suitable job i like except teaching dizi.. i love teaching dizi! that's the happiest and most enjoyable time of my life! but sad man.. i only have 1 student so far.. =(

Yesterday's SYCO prac was cool.. xindi only me.. cos pauline didnt come.. finally got to play the whole song cos i've been missing the prac whenever they practised the piece.. the song's really challenging, nice and fun!! ga da mei ling! But sad la.. the xindi solo part is SCO lao shi play de.. so my dream of soloing is gone again.. haix.. btw. i saw GUO LING QIANG LAO SHI on MONDAY!! haha.. his hair looked so different.. he came back and asked us to choose what pieces we wanna play for next yr!! i miss him a lot!! haix.. i hope i dun need to go overseas.. so next yr he come back to conduct us it'll be so fun la!!

hai.. and two days ago I almost went mad.. i was playing solitaire then suddenly heard many voices talking to me inside my head.. so scared.. was on e verge of screaming.. then i immediately shut down my lap top and went to look for my mum.. then relaxed and teared for a while and i was better.. mum even helped me massage my head.. i love her!! haix.. i guessed i was too tired ba.. but this nv happened to me before.. haix.. maybe im really dying soon..

im so damn frustrated nowadays.. especially the scholarship application.. NAC so ma fan.. too late le.. so ended up applying MDA.. but scared by the time reach their office already too late.. cos i sent on 29April.. and 30April was the deadline.. and the online application didnt state clearly.. thought was just online application.. but after I submitted online.. they say mus print out the documents and sign and post it back to their office.. sian.. and NAC worst still.. need referee to write a long essay for me.. and already too late.. cant expect my lecturer to last min rush for me.. not nice.. and think too late also.. then besides that NAC also need to submit our songs and recordings.. haix. give up..

then still waiting for NTU letter.. i really hope i can get in.. though my father keep presurizing me to go overseas.. he keep saying he can afford it but the fact that he cannot.. cos i know.. he is already on so much stress le.. i cant stress him too much!!

today also sucked.. my niece's birthday.. in my mind i was so happy and already planning how everything will work when i pass her the really huge present i bought for her.. the look on her face.. so happy and smiley.. but all just didnt work out the way i expected.. haix..

I spent so much effort and time to choose and buy for her the present.. and i bought it on the day i was on MC and didnt go work.. so sick already but still insisted to buy a present for her.. walked around compass point for hours and finally decided to buy her a doctor play set.. for 3yrs and above.. cos' she's 3 yrs old this yr and can upgrade her toys liao..

I know its ridiculus and childish to be angry with a 3 yr old child for nothing.. but i was really hurt and perhaps emotional ba.. went to her house first thing was to ask 'Where is Rachel?' holding her pink colour wrapped present so happily and when i saw her inside her room with the other kids, I happily and so excitedly wish her 'Happy Birthday!' but then she didnt respond or got excited or anything.. then didnt call me auntie which she would everytime call when she sees me.. then didnt say thank you or what.. worse still, she say she didnt want the present.. wa kao..

then my mood was like sian 1/2 liao.. then went out to eat lunch.. the whole time there was so boring and moody.. nobody cared about us.. like as if my mei and i were like invinsible.. my niece also didnt bother.. then almost quarrelled with my elder sis over the taiwan trip gathering.. she thinks that the group of ppl will do harm to me.. and commands me not to attend their outings or chalet or whatsoever.. but im already a grown up.. i know how to differentiate between good and bad people.. if im uncomfortable with someone, i will stop seeing them.. argh!! so angry.. then when they cut cake really no mood take photo and all.. then when the rest of the people went home, my mei and i took the opportunity to take the present to my niece Rachel.. and asked her to open up the present.. then when she opened up she say she didnt want to play.. she didnt like it.. then her ah ma made the matters worse by saying 'you bring the present back la, she don't like and don't play big toys one'. wtf... i was so angry.. that i really wanted to take the present home!! then was a bit emo again.. and i left.. partly also cos i needed to go teach dizi..

kao.. sian.. next time i don't bother to buy anything for her le.. though i understand she is still young and doesnt know how to think and what is 'being appreciative'.. i understand that i should not be angry over this matter cos' she is still young.. but then im really so hurt.. not angry with my niece of course!! but angry with myself for being like this..!

the only good thing that happened today was teaching dizi.. that's the best and i loved it!! But my father gave me the wet blanket by saying 'are you sure you know how to teach? Dont anyhow teach them.. i see you play like not very good.. etc..' wakao.. #%#^$*$(##@#!!!

today even bought a new pants just for work.. and bought black shoes and a cardigan.. then ended up not selected.. sian man.. waste my money.. the company sucks man.. the boss is so strict and so many many rules.. if late for 1 min need to deduct $20 from your pay.. siao.. then the job got so many things to do.. like as if we are robots.. oh man..i think i cannot do office work.. im also not doing any telemarketings anymore.. i hate it!!! >.<""

think tmr gonna continue calling the konghwa ppl.. hope can finish soon.. its fun calling them.. cos they are already members.. and not strangers who will reject your call.. or scold you and make your day even worse..