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Name: Joyce Poh
School: Singapore Polytechnic
Course: Dip in Music and Audio Technology (Yr3)
Age: 19
DateOfBirth: 27October1988

MY LOVES
DiZi
Performing
MUSIC!
Comedy/Romance Movies
Anime
Swimming
Dreaming
Egg,Ice-cream,chocolate
People who cares
Smiling =)

MY HATES
Unappreciative ppl
Horror Movies
World War/Home War
Making Decisions
Yam, EggPlant and Lady's Fingers

MY WISHES
Peace & Harmony
Know myself & others better
Everyone I care are healthy including myself
Jaw faster heal!!
Happy and more energetic


Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Dear Diary,

Haix.. why when things are just getting better suddenly more problems arise? Recently having a lot of problems with my family.. And the 2 lead roles are my bro and my sis. Separate problems and both are extreme cases.. haix.. and then the result, parents quarrelling.. pushing the blame to one another.. but not themselves.

my bro is so unfilial.. crashed my father's car.. threatened him and us..by either saying he wants to leave the house or commit suicide.. treat our home like a hotel.. to him, nothing else is important except his girlfriend and computer.

my sis is another problem.. i feel that i'm beginning to feel like a total stranger to her.. i don't understand her anymore or at all.. she keeps everything to herself.. no matter how many times we love her, or talk to her and explain to her things.. for her own good.. she pretends to listen to us but in the end, more problems come from her.. i'm so tired of all these.. bcos' im so lost and helpless..

just when i've settled down with my decisions on studying.. now more problems..

i think i am going mad..

what i feel worse is that, i cant do anything to help at all.. i'm so lost.. and i hate it when i drag my friends together with me.. but i just cannot keep everything inside me.. i'll feel worse..

im sorry if i keep stressing you all up with my problems.. i don't really mean it de.. i know you all are already so stressed up with your own problems.. but then...

and also besides that, i still have my own problems.. haix.. all i can do is to avoid it.. cos' no matter how hard i try i know its still impossible.. so instead of always thinking and hoping for it, why not just forget about it and not think at all?

haix.. i feel that i really don't understand ppl at all..

things are not meant to be how you wished for in reality.. you just have to accept it and move on.. but why do i keep thinking about it..

Anyway, i really enjoyed my 3rd singing perf at White Tangerine Cafe on Sun! It was fun~!

Yesterday so many things happened again.. haix.. and then my boss spoke to me.. Actually I shouldnt feel sad at all.. cos' this was what I wanted in the first place.. maybe its the better choice for me to leave.. He's right.. i'm still unstable.. i just cant do anything right.. but just when i'm kind of liking my job and colleagues.. and.. in 2 more weeks..

everything seems so wrong..

today had a great time going out with Chu Jun!! Its been months since we went out together.. and I really enjoyed it.. bought a lot of things.. 2 shirts and 1 pair of jeans! =) and I also bought toys for my niece.. went to my sis's house after shopping to pass the present to my niece..had a great time playing the toys with her =)

tired.. sian.. so unlucky.. waited for 3 buses of 51.. all came single deck.. then the whole bus was so packed till the driver didnt want to open the door.-.-

just when i wanted to walk all the way down to take bus 87, the rain poured.. and i waited for 55 to come and took bus..

today enjoyed the feeling of walking in the rain..

felt so relaxed..

i want to drink wine!! drown myself.. forget everything else..

MY COMPUTER SOUND SYSTEM GOT PROBLEM!!! ARGH >.<"

I NEED HELP!!

11:41:00 PM


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