Dear Diary,

Its been some time since I blogged.. dont know why didnt feel like blogging for the past few wks.. like i prefer to write my daily happenings in my diary book instead.. maybe too personal? or just lazy to rewrite it 2 times..

haha..

anyway, I lost my voice 1 wk ago then because of that my singing perf at global sounds was cancelled.. haix.. sad man.. cos I had 2 opportunities to sing this month.. but 1st was cos' I had to attend Hazel's bday party so couldn't make it.. 2nd was lost voice.. haix..anyway, today I tried practicing at home.. i could feel that my high voice is returning soon..

I'm so happy that I'm singing this sat at Global..hee.. Thanks Esther for giving me another chance..hee.. cos' I wanna sing for the last time =) I'll do my best!!

have to sing 2 canto songs.. And I dont even know how to speak dialect.. so got the help from Mum.. haha.. translated the canto words into han yu pin yin.. and they sounded funny!

lol..

Past few days I was quite emo.. cos I was not chosen for SYCO concerto.. that was my 3rd time auditioning le.. haix.. quite disappointed..cos I didnt play well during the audition.. Ye Cong even asked me to skip to the kuai ban instead.. after playing the man ban halfway.. =(

haix.. And today heard that I was also not chosen for HK Camp..=( another blow..

I really don't know if I should continue SYCO next yr ma.. like not given a lot of opportunities.. like solo perf.. my next biggest dream is to have my own concerto perf.. but Im not sure whether it'll come true yet..

cos' Zheng Lao Shi's giving me a chance to perform solo for ChengSan's concert this yr.. but the song piece is not confirmed yet.. like very hard to find a suitable song for me.. so I cant confirm anything yet.. haix.. really hope it'll be confirmed soon! if not.. another blow.. and I don't know if I should continue playing dizi ma.. no motivation.. no direction.. no goals..

these few days very confused about many things.. and suddenly feel very lost..

about religions.. friends.. own personal confused mixed up feeling.. relationships.. future.. maybe I think too much le.. till sometimes I don't know what Im talking about.. even chatting with friends seem very weird..

haix..

anyway I got into NUS.. sch of Arts and Social Sciences.. still waiting for NTU's letter.. but most prob going NUS ba.. havent decide wad to major yet..

hope I can get the scholarship!

These few days also busy with recordings and helping with Eason Music Store.. cos' they are moving out their store.. having clearance sale too..

I also learnt about being prepared for last min changes.. which I dont know if its a gd or bad thing..lol.. haix.. just know that I cannot plan so much.. cos' last min things happen.. and my plans will be ruined.. but then its challenging in another sense.. haha.. ok la.. i need the job!! so.. I guess I will be able to handle it..

thinking of next month onwards.. i need to find other jobs in order to have more income le.. how!!!!

argh!! >.<"