Dear Diary,
Yesterday was my 1st day of school at NUS. Didnt have the 1st day of school feeling. so weird.. unlike poly.. the feeling was really weird and bad.. in the morning i was really happy touched and grateful! chiew hsia and yue ting accompanied me to my 1st lecture at 10am =) cos' yueting had break from 10-12pm as tutorials have not started.. then chiew hsia actually didnt have lesson until 12pm too.. but she accompanied me at SK station all the way to NUS. =) thank you my dear girl friends!! =)) heehee.. We took train to harbour front instead.. cos i had stomachache on the way..hai.. dunno was it bcos i was very nervous or wad.. then we took bus 10 from harbour front to kent ridge interchange =)
first lecture was Southeast Asian Studies.. one of my exposure modules.. it was great and the lecturers were funny! =) at first i thought the module would be boring.. cos' i've heard from other friends that it is hard.. and the title Southeast Asia Studies sounds like social studies.. but it was ok..
then we were released earlier.. then Tian Hwee joined us =) at 12pm Chiew and Yue went for their lecture while I had lunch with Tian Hwee at Mac.. =)
everything was alright before that..
then after lunch.. we went separate ways for different lectures..
i went for my jap film and anime lecture.. i thought it would be interesting..
but the lecturer, an old lady prof.. gave us a really not so nice 1st impression.. her first words were like "if you don't like this class, you can leave the room" like as if telling us that if we are bu shuang attending this class we can get lost..
kao..
then after that she had her lecture.. then i sat alone.. no friends..
realised very hard to make friends.. didnt know how to start.. like so different from poly.. haix..
then the 2nd hour.. we watched a film.. showing the different eras of japanese films.. but then.. dunno why they kept showing those nude scenes of different films.. -.-"" then the lecturer was so weird.. said that if we don't want to watch the nude scenes then we can leave..-.- diao.. but then the thing was we alrdy saw then she say.. she should have let us know that the video would have nude scenes before she played it.. dots man!
then i really felt so sian.. like i've chosen the wrong module..=(
then after the lesson ended.. i really felt like dropping this module.. cos' i dun understand at all... all the old films.. dun understand why..
i thought this module would teach us about modern film and anime.. cos i love anime.. but turns out to be.. we'll only be covering on 2 animes.. and the rest are films..
haix..
then after the class.. i headed to my last lecture for the day from 4-6pm..
it was sociology exposure module..
the class was huge.. about 450ppl in the LT.. T_T i've nv attended a class in a LT with so many ppl before. its so weird..
then i sat alone.. cos' i didnt know anyone who's taking the same module.. a bit of a loner again.. haix..
then at first i saw quite a lot of ppl who sat alone.. and i thought maybe they also didnt have friends.. but when the class was about to start.. more ppl came in.. and actually they are their friends.. they came in earlier to chop seats for them.. haix.. then i looked around again.. like im the one sitting alone..
it was horrible.. i didnt understand wad the lecturer was talking.. abit of bias.. cos' he kept saying JC JC JC.. like as if the class had no one who came from poly..=(
felt left out..
so sucky feeling..
then e funny thing was.. i didnt think that there was anything to write or take down any notes.. but i looked around and saw ppl writing on their lecture notes.. like as if so many things to take down..
then i felt weird that i was like the only one not writing anything.. so in the end.. i just took out my pencil and try to write something which i didnt even know wad i was writing about..
the lecture was boring.. the module was even more boring.. i thought sociology is an interesting course.. to know about how ppl behave and think.. but it didnt turn out to be wad i had expected..
actually even thought of majoring in either sociology or theatre studies.. but now i confirm im not going to major in sociology le..
monday i'll be attending my theatre studies module.. hope it will be good..
if not..
perhaps..
i'll quit school at the end of the yr..
haix..
sad again.. cos' i've msged so many ppl regarding my first ever solo perf.. but only 2 or 3 replied me said they'll be going.. the rest didnt reply.. then some replied but said they not going..=(
felt weird.. like not enough practice.. conductor went for holiday.. next sunday performance le..=(( last sun prac cancelled due to NDP.. this sun cancelled due to conductor holiday.. then only have next thur,fri and sat to rehearse..
i really hope everything will go well..
God, Buddha, Guan Yin Pu Sa..pls Bao You Wo!!