Dear Diary,

Today so tired again~! haha.. chiew hsia came to my house to swim at around noon.. then we went to steam room for a while and chatted.. so happy! =) then after that went to rivervale plaza for lunch ^^ then she came to my house to do her arranging assignment-song transcription, while i practiced my dizi.. sian la.. i still cannot blow the 3 songs throughout.. will stop one.. hai.. always the same.. think i must overcome my fear of playing wrong notes!! then about 530pm i got ready my stuffs for the performance at Hotel Royal at 730pm.. and we went our separate ways at the station..lol..

just came home.. and im so tired!! didn't know where is hotel royal located at...so chiew hsia helped me to search the web.. then found out that novena is the nearest mrt there and can take a few buses 2 stops to reach. I thought it would be easy.. but then when i reach there, the bus stop was like so far from the station.. then they say 2 stops but actually only 1 stop.

I thought Hotel Royal sounds very 'Royal' like maybe a 4 or 5 star hotel.. but then the hotel is so old la! more like a 2 star hotel.. the toilet so damn small!! no space for me to change my costume.. speaking of it, sian.. today's performance must wear those china costume.. so luckily i still have my EVCO costume with me cos i borrowed it from the last perf at esplanade.

The performance was so weird la! A few days ago, a lady called Zhong Xiao called me and ask me whether i was free to perform.. 20mins session $60. the price was reasonable. But then i didn't know her.. when she said need to wear 'Tang2 Zhuang1', i declined her offer cos' of the previous bad experience for a gig.. I thought she was the same 'ma fan' person.. but then when i clarified with her then found out is another person and Su Min introduced one then ok.. But, NO SCORES!! must memorize.. we played 'Xi Yang Yang', 'Sai Ma', 'Zhi Zhu Diao', 'Mo Li Hua', 'Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin', 'Yesterday Once More', 'Xiao Cheng Gu Shi' and 'Hua Gu Diao'. -.- all memorize.. and Zhong Xiao who plays the ErHu and I need to stand..then Tan Mo and Su Min can sit cos one is Yang Qin and PiPa..Surprisingly saw TanMo there..long time nv see her le..last saw her at Corel Sec teaching YangQin.. don't know why nowadays got many ppl only want ladies to perform for gigs and they got high expectations one.. cannot be too fat or ugly.. -.-""" diao.. think they wanna copy the 12 girls band.. -.-"

Then the performance was so bad la! I roughly memorized and started practicing a bit today but didnt have all the scores for the songs.. so i basically flunked the perf.. 1st song was Xi Yang Yang.. some of the notes i played wrongly or stuck.. melody somemore.. so embarrassing.. cos we were performing for a dinner then so many eyes were on us.. i was standing in front somemore.. hai.. don't know why.. perform so many times le but still have stage fright..

Then the people in-charge of the concert were so rude man! they even got conflict among themselves and kept rushing us.. so impatient.. hai.. but at least we got our deserved money after e perf.. unlike some of the gigs which i performed.. need to wait so long la!! sianx..i hate things to be delayed!

then after that, we alighted at the wrong stop! wanted to take back to Novena MRT.. but didnt know where were we.. so took bus to Toa Payoh and had our dinner there.. Zhong Xiao was so nice! treated Su Min and I for dinner! she's a friendly lady too =))

So sian la.. i haven't receive my SYCO audition scores!!! next week is audition liao leh! don't know why.. Qing Lun and the rest received le.. but i haven't! there are 2 possibilities.. 1 is the post man sent wrongly.. 2 is they kick me out of syco or didnt receive my reply letter which i sent many days before the deadline.. hai.. so stressed next week! syco audition (if i'm still inside) and my diploma! Don't feel like going to sch.. cos i wann pia my dizi.. but cant leh.. so many assignments and sch work to finish.. argh! next yr syco so lonely again.. i hope not enough ppl then they open e audition again.. then hopefully chu jun or raymond can join! pauline missed the registration.. hai.. dizi so few le.. heard that bing hong is joining.. die.i'm so stressed!

Nowadays like no mood or interest to be in orchestra.. like a bit sian liao.. SPCO i very very long nv go le.. i don't feel like going back too.. so sian.. like no friends.. then EVCO also.. sian liao.. after the esplanade perf and some problems which i gave.. also sian liao.. then SYCO.. don't even know i'm still inside.. but no also good la.. cos like so sian too.. i think im kinda anti-social nowadays..lol..

but still, DIZI rocks my life!! =))))