Dear Diary,

whaha!

MoN

Morning met Raymond at hougang mrt.. he accompanied me to GH see the specialist. Oh Man! we waited like more than 2 hours.. so long la! my appointment's was at 1030am. then we registered at 1040am.. but then waited till like going to be about 12pm then my turn..-.- The doctor was very friendly.. asked me a lot of questions... but mostly i just answered no.. lol.. then she checked my joints for any problems.. but all seemed to be fine. Then told me to take 3 blood tests and urine test.. the bill so ex man! $103.80!! -.- after subsidy.. hai.. next appointment will be in feb.. hope the results would be good....

After that, it started to rain.. then the both of us didnt have umbrella.. so ran in the rain to the shelter.. haha.. i was late for lesson so told Erica that i'll be late. she was very understanding.. told me to take care and she'll explain to me what she would be announcing to e class later.

Sian man.. another assignment for arranging is out!! the last assignment.. need to re-arrange the song 'Happy Birthday'.. can be pop, rock, swing or jazz genre.. i guess i woule be focusing more on pop ballad or maybe try out swing..lol.. stressed!! then i realised all my assignments are on the same week due!! 14jan-18jan that week! oh gosh~ i have like 1 month to finish my 6 projects!! arranging, mumi group, mumi assignment 4, POD.. my 2 edited songs, songwriting.. compose a song based on the concept 'The End', REMT surround sound mixing.. and lastly my comm skills final test is also on that week! argh!!!!!! mad liao.. next week's holiday for 2 weeks.. but like no holiday for us.. rush projects!! Btw, my POD's results are also out le.. for my previous 2 songs.. huai nian and longing tears..hehe.. quite happy with my results.. but then must jia you too! cos final part: web site design and the edited part is total 40%.. hope to seek help from raymond and jun to help me with the web page design =))))

TuEs

REMT lesson was boring.. we didnt do anything.. just discussed in our groups what video are we going to take for the surround sound mixing.. no lessons too.. after that, went to sim lim sq..wanted to collect the free printer.. but then the stock havent arrive.. must wait till tmr..sian..then after that went home.. then met ah mei to go vivocity watch free movie to Alvin and the CHipmunks! =) took photo with the chipmunks too! i love Theodore, the green color one.. cos he's so cute, chubby and adorable!! =P The movie's very short.. like 80mins.. story plot not very interesting.. think wad i like best about it is Theodore!! whahah!!

WeD

MUMI lesson.. no mood to do mumi.. so basically we just did our arranging assignment to finish cos fri hand in le.. lol! Then went to michael's electronic band for prac.. everything we did are all improvised on the spot.. so random.. then i was very lost.. cos i didnt bring my dizi.. so borrowed michael's flute to play.. but not so familarized with the fingerings.. end up i just kept repeating the same notes.. but also went around playing other weird instruments..-.- hai.. dunno leh.. felt a bit strange and uncomfortable joining their band so suddenly.. though jemie and royston were there.. didnt felt very comfortable and happy performing with them.. perhaps im not really used to performing so randomly on the spot type.. should i quit?? but they're planning to go overseas to Australia to perform next yr in march.. but so ex.. $2k!! but will be staying at Michael's house.. Actually wanted to tell Wee Siong that i wanna quit.. but then Michael's so nice.. he's going to lend me his irish tin whistle. and also told me of a good website where i can learn to play flute pieces.. even lent me his flute!! Michael's so nice!! =D I'm so confused la.......... always make decisions so fast and then regret it.. argh.. why am i like tt!!

Then after that went to sim lim to collect printer.. finally. so heavy man.. then saw SHaron on the way back to little india mrt.. so coincidence man.. =D

ThUrs

Songwriting lesson's the last lesson le.. will miss jimmy's teachings.. so interesting.. we didnt do any class work so after his lecture, we went to have branch.. or rather early lunch.. today Daryl announced our comm skills results for the presentation and interview.. quite happy with my results.. but then im very scared the letter writing part will pull my grades down.. cos im bad at writing good letters that are simple and straight forward.. i like to beat around the bush..lol!

then after tt..guess wad.. i went to see a fortune teller in my sch.. lol $20! cos i was confused again..whether going to keele uni would be a good thing..and also about my jaw prob.. i wont say wad e master told me.. but hai.. so sad la!!! i hope it wont come true!!!!! touch wood man!! i love kids.. =(

anyway, i think no fortune telling can change our lives.. it's us who decide our own fate.. =)) may Buddha bless me.. lol..

DuNNoe why leh.. until now.. i still feel so uncomfortable whenever i think about going overseas.. a lot of my lecturers are very supportive and have great faith in me that i'll do very well there.. but still there's just many things i cannot let go.. my family, friends, friends, friends.. my belongings that cannot possibly bring along with me.. lol!! hai.. the fortune teller also said i should take up exotic courses like psychology, socialogy.. then i was kinda shocked cos all along im very interested in these kind of subjects.. how to improve ourselves.. know about human behaviour..how to counsel others.. then i asked him how about music. he just said do whatever im interested and go for it! hmm..

FrI

finished autotuning my vocals le! guessed i overbooked my studio.. so maybe going to master my song on mon.. then must rush my mixing on weekend le.. stressed!

Sat

Went out with ah jie to orchard.. shopping for xmas!! yea.. bought presents for my 3 beloved buddies!! and also for my classmates..looking forward to next thurs.. they'll be coming to my house for xmas lunch.lol! week kiat's going to be our chef!! whahaha!! so excited man!! he's planned a lot of great food for us~~ whEee!! =P

i love my jie.. she's so great! always go out with her and she'll treat us meals.. buy things for us.. im just so happy and blessed to have a great sis like her!! thank you!! =D

then went out for dinner with my father, bro and sis.. then my father kept reminding me that to think carefully about our future.. and if we want to do government work, we better do very well and get a higher post so wont be controlled by other ppl..then he said esp teachers.. then say teaching is real stressed work.. then say newspaper recently had a teacher stress till she steal something from courts then kena caught red-handed by the guard and her students were there too.. hai.. wad a shame.. u know.. im so easily influenced by ppl... now im in a dilemma.. -.- perhaps teaching is not really wad i want to do next time??.. cos its not an exotic job too..lol.. then got many rules and all the bond stuffs.. no freedom to do other things.. suddenly.... whenever i think of performing on stage with my dizi,. i feel so happy and comfortable and relax.. perhaps this is the feeling tt i really want to have?? but thinking of spending 4 yrs in china to study.. sian liao.. -.-"

Then i also thought of maybe going NUS study psychology or socialogy.. cos really interested in these 2 things.. i want to help ppl but just didnt know how to.. all along my gems i've took psychology and about self-help related modules.. hmm... haha!
But then have to study many yrs in NUS.. cos degree is not enough de.. anyone can graduate with a degree.. it's the masters and PHD that counts.. thinking of it.. also sian man.. but then i dont have to leave SG.. i love SG! hehehe.. =D

see.. im really so indecisive right?!! oh man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ppl, pls dont hate me for this..lol..

dont think too much le ba.. =X

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