Dear Diary,

hai.. today SYCO prac very stressed!! cos the Ga Da Mei Ling Jiao Xiang Qu song with SCO is damn hard for the xin di part!! i just cant play well for xin di! especially during the 16th notes.. and need to play fast.. using Da F!! No sound comes out leh.. especially the low notes.. haix.. cannot make it la.. xin di is so hard!!! hai.. why from qu di i downgrade to xin di.. sadded.. =( fingers so painful.. holes so far away.. cannot cover properly.. then so many keys change.. need to use Da G, Da F, D Qudi, Bb.. keep changing after a few bars.. i think toooooo challenging le.. haix..

the good thing about this song is that it is very nice!!!! super nice song with beautiful melodies!! =)

think im just so bad at dizi ba.. though i got my diploma le but then my skills are so lousy.. argh!! no confidence le.. these few days prac dizi till so bad.. very lazy leh.. how!! i need motivation!!!

next week's concerto audition le.. really hope i will get selected!! my only dream.. having SCO accompanying me for my solo piece!! cos june may be the last concert with SYCO and SCO.. haix.. how.. hsien han say Ye Cong likes very Ci Ji de songs.. the piece i chose Zou Xi Kou like not Ci Ji enough leh.. even got a 3mins plus of Man Ban.. that is e hardest la!!! i cant bring myself into the sad mood.. how ar!!!!

I think i really lack of confidence!! so long in CO le i still feel so nervous whenever i have solo parts.. hai.. how ar..!! how to overcome my nervousness??!!

die liao la..!! i need to jia you liao!! cannot be so lazy la!!!! arghhhhh

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