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Name: Joyce Poh
School: Singapore Polytechnic
Course: Dip in Music and Audio Technology (Yr3)
Age: 19
DateOfBirth: 27October1988

MY LOVES
DiZi
Performing
MUSIC!
Comedy/Romance Movies
Anime
Swimming
Dreaming
Egg,Ice-cream,chocolate
People who cares
Smiling =)

MY HATES
Unappreciative ppl
Horror Movies
World War/Home War
Making Decisions
Yam, EggPlant and Lady's Fingers

MY WISHES
Peace & Harmony
Know myself & others better
Everyone I care are healthy including myself
Jaw faster heal!!
Happy and more energetic


Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Maybe or Not?

Dear Diary,

haha.. staying at home is really boring.. but also relaxing.. till i've become so lazy.. lol.. but nothing could get me so excited and wanna go out.. with his company.. anyway.. last thurs didnt feel very good.. cos' was feeling so confused as to why they didn't want me to work.. so had a good chat and went out with my bestest buddy on fri and sat.. then sun went to meet chiew hsia for shopping and also to catch up on each other's life.. =)

then mon was boring at first but fun later..lol..

tues was happy in the morning.. cos went to the company to collect my 2 days of pay.. whee~! but sad later on.. lol... cos' i spent all my money celebrating Mother's Day with my mum and ah mei at Soup Restaurant.. and also I bought a new bag..hee.. but the feeling of treating them was great! The food was great too.. =))

Then later on so funny.. was at Bugis buying my bag.. then suddenly another agent from the same company which I went to collect my pay earlier on called me.. he told me that Ace, my previous agent intro me to him, Aaron (the new agent).

The funny thing was that I thought my trial was already over and that they had found someone else to replace me.. but then Aaron said now is under different agent le.. then asked me to come down for the interview.. so funny! haha.. I was thinking.. I just happily got over with leaving the company and now I'm coming back to work as the same position but under different ppl.. wouldn't it be so awkward?

I was contemplating this morning whether to go or not.. cos I agreed to meet him this morning at 10am.. but decided to reject his offer.. cos' it's so awkward la!! like I told myself i will never return back to work for them cos' i don't like the job.. and then I return the next day.. so funny right! lol.. so haha..

but so happy la.. cos' I got 2 other temp jobs le.. both events.. and confirmed... working from 10May-14May and 20May-23May both at Suntec City for events thingy.. =)) so happy la! Really must thank Hazel for introducing the job to me!! ^_^

then finally received the email reply from Fiona.. the 15 ringtones project which I did for them from Nov last yr till now.. didnt hear from them for so long.. and a few of my ringtones I did kena rejected too.. but at last they accepted all my 15 new and finalised ringtones and I can go down collect my cheque tmr le! =)

Whahaha!!

then just now went out with ray again to buy things.. and then went to teach dizi..=)) before that, i was rotting at home..lol..

so happy!! =))

but then i just received NIE/NTU letter! I got shortlisted to study Bachelor of Science in Education teaching pri sch.. then have to take the Math Qualifying Test.. though is EMath and AMath but I so long didnt touch them le.. already forgotten most of it.. haix.. and the test dates are either 27May or 10June!! so fast! I havent prepare yet..

Haix.. actually I signed up for Bachelor of Arts.. wanna teach English, Geog or music de.. but then that time went for interview.. they said i got take Amath in sec sch.. so more suitable to teach math then english.. and then worse still.. they said they don't have music course in NIE.. usually they employ from outside de.. like those graduated from NAFA or Laselle.. haix..

So that means.. if I'm going NTU/NIE, I am majoring in Math le.. means I will need to study Degree Math.. and become Math teacher in Pri Sch.. I dun think I will be teaching science.. cos during interview.. they didnt ask me about science.. partly cos' im not from JC ba.. haix.. so confused..

Cos' of Keele uni.. though i know now my reason for not wanting to go keele is because of money.. my family cant afford it.. and the scholarship thingy is so long.. dunno when will receive their reply.. then another thing is cos' of my health.. i like cannot take care of myself.. haix.. keep falling sick.. then also Chinese Orchestra.. I will have to give up on my student le.. and cannot take part in this yr's competition.. and cannot join SYCO next yr when Guo Lao Shi will be coming back to conduct us... and our newly formed Yun DiZi Quartet.. and next is im really very bu she de to leave my family and friends esp ....... =(

Cos' I know during these 2 yrs sure many things will change de.. esp with no personal contact.. if go overseas, the only way of contact is through phone or internet.. cannot see the person in real person..or be with him/her.. anything happen you can't be there..

I know im thinking the negative side now.. but really have to think for the worse..

Then im not sure whether I really want to become a music teacher to teach music theory.. cos' actually I don't really like music theory.. from the results that I get for music theory you can see how weak i am.. I just wanna teach dizi.. mainly more on practical ba..

but then i also used to say i hate math.. pri sch have been failing it.. only when i came to sec sch then started to pass math.. but can I do it?

I think I will love teaching.. because I love teaching DiZi now.. i love to lead others.. but to study math.. im still confused whether will I succeed? cos' its uni degree math.. even higher level than Alevel Math.. though only teach pri sch, i still need a degree..

HAix.. if they could give me other subjects like english or geog than good le..

Im scared that if I graduated from keele, what can I do later on? Cos' I don't think I can be recording engineer.. cos' of the music technology modules they offer.. like its more on music programming.. like creating music softwares like Michael does.. which I totally don't understand.. more on MIDI.. then the technical side.. cos' only yr 1 they offer studio recording module and surround sound.. which I will miss cos' i'll be heading yr 2 straight..

Then after talking to a few ppl, they find it weird for me to go UK to take up DiZi as performance.. cos' it would be strange and different.. imagine the instructors teach me in English.. and the songs how.. but some say it would be very unique and special.. haix.. but anyway, they havent confirm with me yet whether they found a DiZi instructor there or not.. but YangQin de already confirmed..haix..

I also cannot possibly become a musician after I return back from Keele Uni... cos' to get into SCO its super hard la.. alot of musicians come from China.. and China is the only place that is more recognised for Chinese Instruments..

So what's my final decision... haha..

I need to weigh pros and cons.. cannot regret my decision liao!

I think the good thing about Keele is the environment is really nice, prof very friendly, 2 yrs only, double degree.. but then I'm not sure whether I want to further my music studies.. of course, Im not giving up music la! I'll never give up music!! I love music.. but i will continue to participate in local Chinese Orchestras.. and also to teach dizi.. and learn from my instructor.. hopefully one day maybe when i got the money and maturity, I can go China or somewhere else to further music and my DiZi..

perhaps I should be realistic now and pass the math qualifying test first!! I wanna lessen my father's burden!

maybe this is my final decision already.. I'm going for the 4-yr course in NTU/NIE..

Haix.. now Im scared.. how to reply Keele Uni? How to tell my lecturers? How to tell my father who now so encourage me to go Keele..?

Maybe I can really become a good Math teacher?

But I would really hope to teach humanities or the arts instead.. =S

Still,

I'm really Thankful~!! =)

11:16:00 PM


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