Dear Diary,

I couldnt believe that I was first.. until the NAC ppl called me last fri at 510pm to ask me to play pamierdechuntian on sat for the prize winners concert.. I was the only one with an ensemble as accompaniment. It was like a dream came true to fast.. till I had no preparation.. thought I wouldnt get selected cos' they said will call us between 430-5pm.. but didnt receive at 5pm.. until 10mins later.. at first was quite happy and relieved cos I could go for my vocal prac.. but sad that I had to rush down to YMS to prac with them.. before that headed to lao shi's house to borrow dizi from him.. my dizi CMI..then took cab down.. It was quite weird intially.. cos I was late and everyone was waiting for me..but no choice.. cos they called me at 510pm and asked me to reach at 6pm.. the prac was quite good.. very cool experience.. but stressful.. cos' Mr Lum conducted.. then at first he said my dizi sounded very flat.. then got a few parts I not in sync with the ensemble.. its not like solo where you can extend your beats a little.. have to be on the right beat... didnt thought till so clearly until I rehearsed with the ensemble.. =)

Anyway.. sat I took cab down to YST Conservatory.. cos had to reach at 845am.. it was a very long and tiring day..morn had run thru', rehearsal.. then afternoon watched the ensemble and percussion finals competition..then at night was the prize winners concert..tiring.. but then I was my biggest day of my life.. I was the first one to perform for the concert.. start the ball rolling.. stressful... almost played out with the ensemble. but managed to glued myself in with them.. luckily i didnt stop or forget my notes.. phew~

I was really happy that Hong Lao Shi came down =)) really happy!!! Cos I really hoped he could watch me getting my award.. =)) but sad that Raymond couldnt come cos he was sick.. ah mei also didnt come.. haix.. wanted to take a memoriable pic with them..=(

I was really touched to see mum so supportive of me.. she's been to my prelims, finals and prize winners concert!! Thank You Mum!!!! I know that during these 1 month, I've been worrying you and troubling you cos' I was sick throughout the whole month..

I've finally accepted myself.. after that day.. but I know that I still have a long way to go.. I still need to improve even more.. cos' I clearly know my standard.. competition is also partly due to luck and of course hard work.. but then like Zhu Lao Shi who gave us a masterclass on sun, told us that most important in a competition is not the results..cos it's just the 20mins time on stage and anything could go wrong or happen.. and he told us that if we were to try compete again.. the results will surely defer.. unless there's one ppl who is really super talented and outstanding..he also told us the song choice is really important!!

However, the most important thing is still the journey or preparation.. this competition is meant to increase our confidence..and I know I lack of confidence in myself.. but from now onwards.. I'll prac hard.. and not give up.. have more confidence in myself.. I still have a lot to learn and improve on!!

I'm really grateful and happy to have my friends who are so supportive of me.. encouraged, cheered, listened and shared my joy with me during this period.. though I also thought of other friends whom I always treated them to be my close friends, and wished or hoped that they would share my joy with me or at least a little concern about me like ask me how's my competition and etc... however maybe they're just too busy or doesnt care ba..

now i finally understand what is the meaning of true friends.. sometimes I feel guilty of not treating them as important as my other close friends whom I thought otherwise..

Thank You Everyone!! ='))

I also had the guts to msg my lecturers to tell them my good news.. at least the sacrifices I made this yr did not go to a waste..

I'll apply for NUS next yr!!! =)

Gonna study hard le..

Just received SYCO letter.. and I'm more assured now.. cos I'll still be in SYCO next yr! yay! So happy.. cos I really really really thought I flunked my audition.. till Mr Quek rang the bell at me..

Got to work hard le...

I'm having a singing concert this sat at Singapore Art Museum.. with echomusic peeps.. Christmas Concert.. 8pm-930pm.. tickets at $10.. interested can msg me.. =))

busy week.. got to go for xmas shopping~ whee~~ ^^

Its thanks giving time~~!! i've got so many ppl to thank to!! lol~~