Dear Diary,

realised that recently I have become so emo.. but still, I'm grateful for everything and thankful for the people around me who have helped me or supported me or been with me or given me great advices or pointed out my bad points or given me opportunities or let me realised that I should not take things for granted..or been indecisive..

recently just graduated from the 1st batch of Star Program at Echomusic. Will miss the times having lesson with Raymond and Regina.. ='( haix.. best times ever.. cos' they made realise how fun singing is and I've found myself another passion which I never ever thought I will have before. but still.. haix..

feeling tired of CO sometimes.. cos' i've lost motivation, the push to accomplish something.. maybe I should faster go back have lesson with HLS.. but money is another prob.. though i have an opportunity to play solo for concerto in Chengsan CO but then its not confirmed.. cos' until now I havent receive my scores.. and think july is the concert le.. can i master the piece in 3 months? anyway.. now i'm really afraid ZLS will last min tell me that he cannot managed to buy a score for me to play.. and maybe it'll be time for me to quit.. i dunno..

another opportunity is teach..but then conductor still have to discuss with teacher in charge.. so I cant confirm.. last time he also asked me whether I wanted to teach and I readily and excitedly said yes.. but until syf over also no news.. but now.. i dunno..

lost my fixed part time job.. =(
lost my tuition.. =(
lesser recordings i suppose..=(

hmm..

am i emo again?

i'm such a complicated person with complicated feelings and complicated mind.. and funny thing is that I've been reading so many different self-help or inspirational bks recently but they doesn't seem to help.. though i understand what I must do or must not do.. in the end.. it seems to be the same..

stop the emo!!!!!

i'm a happy person... I cannot let my wild imaginations control me!!

i love my family and friends =)